I have been crazy stressed out this week. Little things have been leaving me flustered. I can feel anxiety rising up in my shoulders. Even my pores are rebelling in the form of zits. I have stress/anger cleaned the house a few times this week.
I admit I am imperfect and do not always accept God’s peace and comfort when I ought. I refuse to slow down because I know I’ll cry.
Today someone dear to us had surgery to remove cancer. The doctor came out to us with good news of a smooth surgery. A night in the hospital. A few weeks recovery. No chemo.
Minutes later another doctor came out to the family next to us in the waiting room. A young mom’s world was shattered. Her husband’s cancer was inoperable and he only has days to live.
It was painful to watch as she embraced family and friends. Her pastor prayed with family members. Someone brought in her children, not much older than my own. I have never been so heartbroken for a stranger.
We cannot live in fear of losing those we love, but we have to live knowing we aren’t guaranteed more time. It is such a fine balancing act that we must do as parents. We instill values and morals for the future but still have to treasure and embrace the now. I can’t let me kids live a life with no rules or consequences but I can let them get dirty and splash in the rain.
I am constantly humbled by the amazing little people God has entrusted to me. The weight of responsibility is sometimes crushing but those are usually the time when I forget to trust. I am unimaginably blessed and I hope I remember to cherish my loved ones while I have them.